Berlin, February 12 2020
Today is a day filled with questions and reflections. I sit by the window of my small apartment in Berlin, gazing out onto the bustling streets filled with strangers going about their business. It feels like I’m lost in the midst of this city’s hustle and bustle, trying to find my true self.
I am in Berlin, far away from the home I once called comfortable. Far from family, friends, and all the sweet memories that were carved there. I came here with fresh hopes, seeking adventure and opportunities to grow as an individual.
However, the longer I stay here, the more hollow it feels. Sometimes I feel like I’m a missing piece amidst all the lives unfolding around me. I miss the warmth of home, the laughter of family, and the delicious aroma of my mother’s cooking.
there are moments when the weight of homesickness hits me with an intensity that is almost palpable. I yearn for the comfort of home, for the familiar embrace of loved ones, and for the simple joys that I once took for granted. The warmth of home seems like a distant memory, a fleeting sensation that slips through my fingers like sand.
The laughter of family echoes in my mind, a bittersweet reminder of the bonds that I’ve left behind. I can almost hear their voices, feel the warmth of their presence, but it’s just a ghostly echo in the empty spaces of my apartment. And as I stand in my kitchen, the aroma of my mother’s cooking feels like a distant dream, teasing my senses with memories of happier times.
In moments like these, I find myself questioning the choices that led me here. Was it worth leaving everything behind in pursuit of something unknown? Did I trade the comfort of familiarity for the promise of adventure, only to find myself adrift in a sea of uncertainty?
I know that this journey is part of my process of finding myself. I have to face discomfort, challenges, and loneliness to grow into a stronger and more independent person. But sometimes, this journey feels so difficult, like walking down a dark corridor with no end in sight.
Today, I’ve decided to do something different. I want to take a walk around this city, trying to feel its pulse and find peace amidst the chaos. I want to walk alone, exploring streets I’ve never ventured into before, and let my mind wander freely.
Perhaps with this walk, I can find answers to the questions that haunt me. Maybe I can find a glimmer of light in the darkness that grips my heart right now. And who knows, maybe I can find a little piece of home in a place so far from home.
